As a gal with no prior experience in freelance business or journalism, I find it hard to start working just on my own. For the last two articles I have written, I have spent an insane number of hours banging my head against the wall, trying to come up with something to write about. What will make people interested in my blog? Is the article even relevant to most people? What will entertain you as the reader? All these questions flood into mind and thus the article remains untouched. Just born and not finished. I care a lot about this blog, but I still manage to distract myself. Desperately so. But I am not alone, we all procrastinate from time to time. Some worse than others.
I would like to say I am an ambitious person, a dreamer of some sort, but past experience shows that I am a lazy, big, and cunning procrastinator. A massive slacker. I always have great excuses to skip work and take a day off, and making excuses to avoid work won’t reward anyone. You will lose so much more than you think, and inevitably, reality will come back to bite you in the ass. Time is precious, and it is not something we can take back. We know that there are big consequences to procrastinating. So why do we keep putting off work?
For many of us, the reason why today is not the right time to do that one task is because we are afraid of failure. Perfectionists are especially prone to procrastinating because they do not believe they have the skills. I do not like the word anxiety, but that is what it is. Personally, the reason why I procrastinate is because I do not know how to start most tasks and I also dread failure and humiliation, so I end up postponing my tasks until it’s too late. At this point in my life, I have mastered the art of procrastinating and I hate myself for it.
Even writing this post has been hard for me. I started on this article yesterday and managed to write 2 paragraphs in 5 hours! I must admit though, I have been watching YouTube videos and talking to my friends while working. At one point, I even made a complicated dish for dinner (notice, I never cook “serious” food for I am merely powered by instant noodles)! Surely, my procrastination skills know no boundaries. I am a mess and maybe you are too. I would write about tips on how to overcome procrastination, but, you know… I will do it in the next article! Promise.